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January 22, 2009

Big news in the world of Jane W. and NASCAR.� My employer�Armando Fitz has sold his race team and the new name is Trail Motorsport.� This was nothing new to me but BIG news�in the racing industry.� Here is an article that was written after our press conference on Wednesday.

�http://sports.espn.go.com/rpm/nascar/cup/columns/story?columnist=hinton_ed&id=3850027

I would also encourage you to check out our team website.� Our mission is to have the fans as our first and most important sponsor.� We are going to be fan oriented and try to provide our team members (fans) unprecedented access to the world of racing.� One of my focuses at work will be� “fan management”.� I am really looking forward to this!!!� Please join the TM�Team.

www.trailmsport.com

This is a SHOUT OUT to everyone around the world!!! WAZUP, PEOPLE!!!!!!!

��� I cant take it anymore! Its like a part of me is missing, ever since the day he left. And I dont know how to get it back.� I hate feeling like this. I feel like Im falling down a an endless tunnel with no escape...�

��� He said I love you, and then turned and walked away. I want to get over him, and forget. But everytime he looks at me with that smile of his, I have to start all over again. When he does that to me I just want to walk over to him and wipe that smile off his face and make him realize how much pain Im in because of him. I dont think he will ever understand this pain that fills me...

��� I try to hide the pain, bottle it up inside and forget about it. Every now and again, it gets the best of me, and I mess up. I want to forget... but I just dont now how.....

Ok so i've done some soul searching and what I have found is that it is just not me that i need to be happy with but everything in my life....yes i miss the people that have passed....yes i admit that i miss my ex....not much but the fun we used to have....but my new guy is better at making me laugh....that is good.....everything i've been through the last 2 years has rocked my world....i've changed people tell me not for the best but in fact for the worse....BUT i feel for the better...yes i'm a nice person BUT i still have the cappability to be a BITCH....yes it is true......But as easy as it is to fall into the BITCH act it's alot harder to like myself in that role...i'm a very pasiant person, loving person, caring person.....but I can still be a BITCH whenever the mood strikes....I just don't like to be :)

"Love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it."

How timely this quote is. It tells the story of our dog's life. He's gone now. He's at peace.

He is missed.

special����������������������������������� 1/20/09

��������������������������������������������������������������������������������� By :Nijah A Thomas

you are so special to me

you bring a smile to me

you give a special hug

you share a special smile

you got a special happiness

that makes me happy too.

Hey,

I just had the worst day of my life 3 days ago... and now.. i guess its not that bad anymore.. its mild. WHich is not to bad,

But yes. i have to maximize my hair growth this month!

1) I'M GOING TO EXCERCISE LOTS

2)I'M GOING TO EAT HEALTHY

3) I'M GOING NATURAL - my shampoos and conditioners and yada

4) i'm not going to think my hair looks ugly.

5) i'm going to get enough sleep.. WORK HARD BLAHBEE ! WORK HARD.

6)i'M going to... drink 1 cup of soy milk a day.. LOTS OF PROTIEN.

7) i'm going to drink more water. KEEP HYDRATED.

okey dokeys i think thats good. =D

it could be my new years resolution or something. " BUILD A HEALTHY BODY anndd HEALTHY HAIR!"� heheh two birds with one stone. i guess.. kinda?

anyways

at the top it says " think of three good things that happened today and analyze why they occurred." okay.. i will do that =D since i have nothing better to do.. i dont think

1. I got time to finish my ENTIRE peanut butter sandwitch. =D WHY that occurred: I wasn't playing around in the bathroom .

2. I fixed my hair a little. WHY that occurred : I washed my hair last night so my bangs just automatically went to my normal 'side bang' side. =D

3. I boosted my self esteem once i got home. WHY that occurred: because i came home and ate some beef jerkey =D yumm

time to sign off. i'm getting tired. and like i said. ineeds exercise.

love to you all

blahbee

I'm so tired this morning. And I imagine Sean is too. He didn't know he was going to be kept�up when he turned in at around 11:30�last night.�

Radar wouldn't be quiet, he was begging from his spot in the kitchen and the noise was just enough to keep Sean awake.�After trying what he knows to�make the dog quit he comes to me. I was asleep for a short while by that time so I don't really know what to think and figure the dog just wants to relieve himself outside - so I put him�out and wait. He just stands there for what seemed like forever. I urged him to go and he usually does what I say but he just stood there and then layed down! Whatha?! It's freezing�out there, "come!" Nope, he wasn't gonna do that either, I had to put the leash on him and tug it to make him get back in the house.�

This is so wierd for him not to obey, I know he's sick and that could be resulting in�wierd behaviors but usually he obeys if he can. And he could have because once the leash�was on him he got right up and walked into the house. I told him to "down" on his pillow, "stay". I went back to bed but�within the next half hour Sean was back to�tell me he was at it again.

My only idea was to toss his pillow out on the deck and let him be out there all night. Of course I kept one�ear on the back yard, I�kept waking up wondering if he was making any noise out there.�He's never slept all night outdoors, and it seems like it wouldn't be comfortable at all - it's in the *30's out there!

I checked on him when I got up�at 5:30�he was awake, he looked at me but wasn't interested in coming in. WIERD!! What do I do?�He's sick, his heart is not beating right according to the vet, what would he say if I told him the dog wants to sleep outside? I feel stupid to call about this but I don't want another night like last night.�

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Tear Stained�������� by Nijah A Thomas

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oh tear stained soul

why do you cry

i cry because i try to be graceful

but my wings jost fail to fly

oh tear stained heart

why do you cry

i cry because i try to love

but the love just runs away

oh tear stained eyes

why do you cry

i cry because i see the pain

but the stain just wont come out

oh tear stained child

why do you cry

i cry becausei am tear stained

and my soul,heart and eyes

cry with me so im not alone

in this tear stained game